36 Weeks
Is it true? Can it be real? Will we really have a baby in one month? What will she look like? What will her name be? What will our life be like after that? Right now I have a lumpy, jerky, wiggly, little body inside of me, with mystery bones and parts I can feel with my hands, and jabs I can feel in my ribs and pelvis. It's a growing bulge, a round firmness in my middle. My kids joke that I'm smarter now because I have two brains in me. I have another month of this extraordinary condition before I trade it for an additional individual in my family. Then I will never feel this again--this lumpy, jerky, wiggly little body in my middle. But I will feel her in my arms. It's getting closer. I'm at 36 weeks which means a few things: I can't find a good position to write on something on my lap. I can't find clothes that fit, so I've had to wear Ephraim's shirts. I struggle putting on and taking off my socks and shoes. My face is full...